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What was the motivation to elevate, then destroy Kurt Cobain?

And the sky was all violet
I want it again, but violent, more violent
Yeah, I’m the one with no soul
One above and one below

Courtney Love – Hole – Violet – 1994
Napalm Beach w Venarays

One of the things I’m trying to parse is the motivation to lift up, then destroy Kurt Cobain, and to involve Courtney Love in that endeavor. Because that’s what I think happened. I think that based on the way Nirvana was run parallel to Napalm Beach between 1987 and 1991 (I don’t know if I’ve fully shown that, but I’ve seen it) – and the movements of Courtney Love, from the Napalm Beach band house, to the UK, back to Portland, to San Francisco (this may have been Rozz-related, but there are a lot of people linked to San Francisco including some around me), back to Europe, making Straight to Hell and Sid and Nancy in 1986… during this period of time, she was always back and forth to Portland. Kat Bjelland’s band Venarays was playing around Portland and Seattle a lot in 1986 and 87; Bjelland probably moved to Minneapolis in 1987 and Love followed her (so the story goes) in 1988.

For my part, I left Humboldt County and started going to school in St Paul, across the river from Minneapolis, in late 1987. (Again – I’d wanted to go to school at Evergreen in Olympia.) My boyfriend Mike Payne showed up in June 1988 and we moved to Dinkytown in Minneapolis where he lived with me until November. The girl that I considered my best friend was Erika Schlaeger. She lived in a warehouse space downtown and she knew everyone in Babes in Toyland and I later found out she knew Courtney Love as well.

All of the people I thought were my friends (as well as Mike Payne) apparently turned out to be backstabbers, filing false reports with the FBI. This may be why the FBI/CIA started torturing me via back implants in 1990, though I think there was an alternate goal which was to introduce me to muscle relaxers and opioids. This was done, it seems deliberately, to many people in my circle, and of my generation. I had no interest in taking heroin, so they (corporate financed, medical malfeasance FBI/CIA) made me a “chronic pain patient” – which they also did to Kurt Cobain and many others. This kind of thing seems so insanely evil it may be hard for some people to believe but it’s really just normal operating procedure in this lucrative (for someone) living nightmare.

With regards to honeytraps, I’m putting together is a picture where there is a lot of movement with key individuals, including lots of traveling to Europe and elsewhere. Mike Payne went to Europe/UK and Southeast Asia at least three times in the late 1980s. Erika Schlaeger was traveling in Europe and South America. Courtney Love was in Europe/UK and Guam, maybe other places. These same individuals also travelled frequently within the Untied States. Where did all the traveling money come from, and what, exactly, were they doing on these trips? Were they collecting and distributing finance? Were they brokering deals? Were they peddling malfeasance and murder?

There are other weird coincidences. I’ve talked about the matching jailbait honeytraps – Courtney (aimed at Chris) and “George” (aimed at me) both of whom were linked to Erika Schlaeger in Minneapolis. But my daughter was also honey trapped beginning in 2018 by a guy she met in Washington D.C. while she was doing an internship. This was a very nasty and traumatic thing that was done to her. This man (who lied a lot) had grown up (he said) in Hollywood, Florida (near Miami). During that period of time my daughter had been placed in housing on the George Washington university campus and her building was called The Dakota (about five blocks from the White House, it looks like). That’s a link to (John and Yoko and) Courtney Love and Erika Schlaeger. I say it’s a link to Erika Schlaeger because in the 1980s there was an old hotel in Minneapolis called the Dakota with a dark bar downstairs that Erika liked to frequent. I say it’s a link to Courtney Love because she wrote a song called “20 Years In The Dakota.”

map of Washington DC showing location of Dakota building

This is really hard to write about because it is so infuriating as a mother that they did this to my daughter, even after I was actively trying to address this issue, warn my daughter, etc. These occult creep-stars have a million different ways to kidnap, lie, exploit, betray, harm, and murder, and Courtney Love is at the forefront of a tremendous amount of this, representing, I think, global corporate finance and entertainment industry interests, all while being backed by the FBI and CIA.

This brings me back to why there was this plan to promote, then destroy Kurt Cobain. I have to guess it was for a few reasons. First, there’s the occult. It could be a very old thing done with modern technology, as I suspect what was done to Bret Bowman was a very old thing done with modern technology. But the practical reason may have been to essentially capture everyone involved in the crime, especially Kurt and Courtney. Kurt Cobain was likely chosen for a number of reasons, including his talent, his location, his background (family ties, butterflies) – and possibly also because he was not fully on board with the program of destruction aimed at me and Chris Newman, thus he was a strategic elimination. By involving Courtney Love in all of this, it makes her very invested in not having the truth revealed. And there’s been a ton of energy put into hiding the truth. Even the so-called “justice for Kurt” movement is part of the hiding of truth, because it presents a scenario that isn’t even close to what happened.

When I look at what happened to Bret Bowman and what happened to Kurt Cobain as matched atrocities, what I see are the same players, basically. At the very least, you see that people involved in each scenario were adjacent to each other, but I honestly see signs of Courtney’s tracks in both events. When Bret was hit by the car on June 27,1988 while high on LSD, he was on his way to the Country Fair in Oregon. In my mind, the Country Fair is linked to Rozz Rezabek, because he went every year, and to Courtney Love adjacent hippies (the Ken Kesey crowd). And Bret was going to meet Scott Gear who worked for Sub Pop either at that time or right after that. Also, as I’ve mentioned, the day Bret was hit was the last day of the monthly Sub Pop Sundays showcase, held this time on a Monday. It’s not clear who played that day, but the previous month it had been the Derelicts and the month before that, Nirvana (April 24, 1988). Before Nirvana it was Doll Squad, and the month before that, Snow Bud and the Flower People (February 28, 1988).

Bret had been hit in Crescent City, California which is where my daughter’s father lived. I can tell that Courtney Love is a malfeasance link to my daughter’s father’s family, and I know that the children in that family have been subjected to trauma based mind control attacks and abuse (because that is really what trauma based mind control is – repeated abuse, at a multigenerational level, applied with intent of molding a slave/prostitute/warrior personality) and I have reason to suspect that Courtney’s father Hank Harrison is behind some of it and I’ll say why that is. It has to do with the comment he made on the Nick Broomfield movie Kurt and Courtney about setting a pitbull after teenage Courtney. I don’t know if that really happened to Courtney (I sort of doubt it) – but it did happen to one of my daughter’s cousins, a cousin that grew up in Oregon and who seems to have been very involved in making false reports to the FBI. These are Native Americans being systematically molested, abused, and exploited by corporate forces, the FBI, and the CIA.

Like I said, Courtney doesn’t really care about her butterfly warriors. She cares about power, money, and keeping the truth buried. And she cares about getting kills. Backed by corporate greed and medical malfeasance, she really has weaponized the FBI and CIA as a killing machine.

And also, as I’ve said, not just Courtney, but a lot of people would rather it not be known that they knew about, participated in, or profited from the take down of Kurt Cobain. That’s one reason there is such a focus right now on taking me down. The other reasons have to do with the thefts and fraud around Chris Newman, who’s estate I inherited. Chris’ true story interferes with the myth of Sub Pop, among others.

So much of this is written right into the songs themselves. Cobain’s song, “Opinion” which he bravely played on KAOS with Calvin Johnson loudly crunching some food as Cobain introduces the song, for example. Sub Pop had been a subscription service – starting with a cassette zine and by 1990, singles – something everyone who comments on this song pretends not to notice – but that’s par for the course.

Congratulations, you have (won/one)
It’s a year’s subscription of bad puns
And a makeshift story of concern
And to set it up before it burns

My opinions. Mmm hmmm (4x)
And there seems to be a problem here
And the state of emotion seems too clear
Now they rise and fall like wall street stock
And they have an affect on our peace talk

Our opinions….

Courtney McLovin

Courtney Love lived in the Napalm Beach band house during the first half on 1981. There have been lots of hints floating around that she has financial connections to Hawaii. Also, there have been lots of signs that McDonalds financing has regularly been and maybe is still being used to finance falsified stories that are then provided to the FBI. McDonalds, Starbucks, Alaska Airlines, Coca Cola, Miller Beer, cars, home improvements, gas and oil industry finance…

still from Superbad - McLovin fake Hawaiian I.D.

Peter Gabriel - Big Time stuff
Peter Gabriel – Big Time – 1987

When did Courtney become “Courtney Love”?

Over the years I’ve read books or watched TV shows about Courtney Love, so think I know the basic structure of the primary conflicting narratives – I just can’t really say exactly where the information came from.

I can say that Chris said remembered her name in 1981 as Courtney Meneley. There are a number of last names associated with Courtney because her mother married several times. It seems weird for the kids to change their last name so much but 60s counterculture hippies could be weird about families and names.

Nowadays I think most people consider her original name to be Courtney Michelle Harrison (that’s what it says right now on her Wikipedia page). I think that shortly before I was blocked from the Pacific Northwest Music archives page someone had posted a Maximum Rock and Roll column she’d written about Poison Idea that she signed as Courtney Michelle.

There is conflict about where “Love” came from. Some stories claim that Rozz Rezabek gave her the name, with the context being, that they would be drinking tea and affecting British mannerisms and he would say “Courtney, love, please bring me the sugar” or something like that. Elsewhere it may have been claimed that “Love” was her official middle name and was on her birth certificate. I think all of this may be misdirection. I think she’s been called “Love” since she was an infant or toddler. The reason I think that is because I saw it indicated pretty strongly in her mother’s memoir “Her Mother’s Daughter.” It was said indirectly, and it was said in the same context – “Courtney, Love…” as a quote, mother speaking to her toddler aged daughter driving through San Francisco. Although it’s possible this was also misdirection I feel like it’s less likely for this to be misdirection because first, it was fairly subtle, and second, I don’t know why her mother would be particularly motivated to lie about this, at least not in this way.

Here is why it matters.

Since everything is in coded language, and since it’s increasingly clear that Courtney was selected and trained for a special role going back to a very young age, you would expect to see links to her, or referencing about her in music and media going back to her childhood, because that is the pattern. (Roxy’s being tortured right now – her ears feel very hot.)

The name “Love” is the perfect fodder for this, because you can work it easily into songs and so forth. And when you start thinking about that, it opens up a whole new range of understanding songs, especially if you start to think about all the signs pointing to links between Courtney Love and the Beatles.

My understanding is that Courtney Love lived in the Napalm Beach band house in the first half of 1981. Then she flew to England, and I think Ireland, and she was in Liverpool. She has made references to Beatles in her songs – so were the Beatles sometimes referencing her? Consider All You Need Is Love (which begins with the French national anthem)

What I’m saying is, I think that it appears to me that Courtney Love, a honey trap, butterfly commander, witch, and ringleader – has been acting on behalf of the recording industry.

Within the occult system, everything light is subverted into something dark. The word “love” is dissected, I believe, into its components (coded letters) – hiding the hole. Like a booby trap.

Black Flag / X / Big Time

December 1979 Los Angeles punk poster
1979

All kinds of dreams again about reports to FBI saying I’d been places I’ve never been and done things I’ve never done, with the strong sense this is linked to Black Flag. That Black Flag are strongly tied to false reports made to the FBI in return for record deals and other favors linked to the recording industry.

This would fit a pattern I’ve already seen with punk rock in general, which is that it now looks to me like it was always a front for string-pullings of the recording industry, CIA, drug trafficking, etc. This doesn’t mean everyone involved in punk rock was involved in that that – but probably anyone who was anyone in their scene was linked into the back room deals. It sounds like a lot of these back room deals involved filing defamatory (untrue and harmful) reports with the FBI in return for favors.

As someone who was enamored with punk music in the early 1980s I guess that I’d observe – even back then I questioned this – how did X end up getting to where they got, signed to Warner Brothers? That was a pretty unique position for a band with the look and sound they had at that time. And I believe it’s fallacy to say that punk bands didn’t want some level of commerical success. I think most people who are seriously into their music and art want to be as successful as they can be, without making terrible compromises. But if you weren’t let in the door, you weren’t going to let that stop you – is how I saw the punk rock attitude.

Ramones were not shy about saying they wanted success. They even had a song called “We Want The Airwaves.” X wasn’t shy about it either. There was a 1986 movie called The Unheard Music in which, to my recollection, they admitted they were seeking commercial success. I myself only started to hear this stuff about deliberately eschewing commercial success as a matter of principle in the 1990s. I’m not sure when Chris first heard it; if it was a concept in the 1960s underground (another CIA op) – but it was pushed pretty solidly by Greg Sage and the Wipers in Portland and by K Records in Olympia.

Did X get a contract with Warner Brothers because they were such a stand out band, quality wise, or was there another reason?

1980 -Los Angeles
1981 – Wild Gift
1982 – Under The Big Black Sun
1983 – More Fun In The New World
1985 – Ain’t Love Grand
1987 – See How We Are
1993 – Hey Zeus

Valarie’s text, my response – May 2021

Here’s Valarie’s final attempt to bait Chris, accusing him of “punishing” her because he hasn’t been responding to each of her multitudinous text messages. The real point of this message seems to be to smear me (“my very existence on this earth upsets erika…. I’m not allowed to see you in person”) as I would learn later, when she created a Go Fund Me to contest his will, making the false claim that I abused Chris and prevented him from seeing loved ones. Other women wrote to him, seemingly working from the exact same script, including Roxcee, Rachelle, and Kate. The script was, Erika has blocked Chris from outside contact. The idea behind it seems to have been to paint me as an abusive controller – which is actually what they were doing – at the behest, I believe, of someone else.

It is really a bit much to accuse someone of treating you like an “enemy” because while dying of cancer, you’ve failed to answer a few text messages.

If Chris had better boundaries, he’d have stopped responding to her ages ago, but that’s just my opinion. I never tried to force him to stop responding to Valarie. That’s not the way I am.

After years of holding my tongue, I sent the following messages on May 9, 22 hours before Chris died. Valarie’s one and only reply, and her final direct communication with me, was the crow sent ten days later.

Satyricon foyer February 1986 – Big Time

I turn and burn.
Do not think I underestimate your great concern.

Sylvia Plath – Lady Lazarus

I want to take a look at this photo that is in the archive of Tom Robinson formerly of Concert Sound. Tom may have taken the photo or he may have acquired it from another source. The photo, I’m told, was taken in February 1986, and I have a feeling the photos been distributed and seen by a lot of people – even to the point that it’s sort of entered the occult – meaning things from the photo have been used to link to other things, including malfeasance.

What I’m posting here is most of the photo, not the whole thing.

Satyricon foyer 1986

I think this is the foyer. Satyricon was remodeled in the 1990s so this is a version of the club I myself never experienced. There’s a big Napalm beach poster or sticker on the side of whatever that structure is, then beneath it, a Sons of the Desert sticker. Above it is a Boy Wonders poster. Everyone who was in Boy Wonders has died, I think of cancer.

There’s a pay phone. Above the pay phone is lattice work, and above the lattice work are two signs, one saying Furies and one saying Tall Tales. There’s also the words “Road to Recovery” sharpied on to the wall, with an arrow pointing to the doorway (or is it to the stickers saying Furies and Tall Tales?) – Road to Recovery was a Napalm Beach song from 1985 album Teen Dream which may have been released on cassette in 1985. It was released on vinyl in 1986. Above the words “Road to Recovery” is a poster that had been drawn by Chris Newman – for Bruno’s birthday party I think. Bruno was the door man. The bands listed are Napalm Beach, Boy Wonders, Dharma Bums and a Seattle band called Untouchable Crew who would later be called U-Krew. There were a few contemporary bands with similar names – U-Men, U-Krew – maybe a reference to University of Washington? and then of course Napalm Beach’s original name was the Untouchables or you could say the Goners – they were the first. I don’t know who the guy is on the poster (?) with the sunglasses. But you can tell from this image that Napalm Beach pretty much ruled the roost. I suspect this was largely by design. It’s not that they didn’t have a lot to offer as a band but that’s not what this was about. This was about cultivating an alluring trap. If they were love-bombed at Satyricon and disdained elsewhere, Chris would learn to stay home. It’s not that they were overtly disdained elsewhere but there were lots of micro aggressions going on everywhere else – venues and other bands sending negative messages and trying to incite bad behavior. I witnessed this kind of thing again and again even after Chris and I were together. It’s disgusting, honestly, and it’s clearly top-down behavior and yes, right now I’m thinking a lot of this is Courtney Love directed and financed hostility. When Chris was sick and dying they amplified it even more, though in some cases it was disguised as “concern.”

Above the signs reading “Furies” and “Tall Tales” is what looks like some kind of art piece with charred wood and a weird face or mask.

still from Peter Gabriel "Big Time" showing man with "stretched" mouth
“I’ll be stretching my mouth
to make those big words come right out”
Satyricon wall art piece - mask with large mouth
“tall tales”

I noticed a similarity to this face in Peter Gabriel’s “Big Time” and I had a sense that the “big words” were Nisqually Delta Podunk Nightmare, a Nirvana adjacent Olympia band that played on KAOS radio and a total of three live shows 1987-88. Slim Moon (later of Kill Rock Stars) and Dylan Carson were in the band, and they were among the first bands to play with Nirvana. This is one of a few places in the Big Time video that makes me suspect that by 1987, Kurt Cobain (then only 20 years old) was already on the chopping block, and if so, it also lends more pattern based evidence that Satyricon was involved in this plan.

Here’s another reason I think this particular photograph was studied in an occult manner. It seems like Valarie may have deliberately evoked it in her last text to me.

As I said before, as Chris was dying, he was subjected to amplified microaggressions coming from every which way. The microaggressions, by the way, never seem to abate. Just today I went out to the garden where I have a compost bin and where I’m caring for some plants and the compost was shoveled out and spread everywhere and my plants were half uprooted. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had plants that I’m caring for uprooted, poisoned, or just stolen – and the compost disrupted, just to create problems for me. This kind of thing happens all the time – but when Chris was dying it was amplified and coming from numerous sources all at once.

This seems like it was similar to what happened to Kurt Cobain right before his death, making me think the same entities are behind it. It’s like they smell blood in the water and they all pile garbage on the sinking person to hasten their demise. And the police, FBI do fuck all if they aren’t behind some of it themselves. They sit there and watch people literally driven to their deaths and won’t even take a crime report.

In Chris’ case, the microaggressions included weird stuff with his phone – an increase in spam calls, an heavy increase in email spam, his T-Mobile voicemail switching to Spanish (this happened to him a lot, and it’s happened to me too, and it’s done remotely, on purpose – he hated it) – and all these women baiting him. This deserves its own entry, but one of the women who kept texting him was his ex-wife Valarie.

Valarie had been lying to Chris and trying to drive a wedge between him and I for some time. Chris would answer her texts politely and then delete them so as not to create conflict with me, but obviously, as he grew sicker, he couldn’t do that. Valarie sent a series of texts where she berated him for “shutting her out” as he was literally dying.

After years of not engaging with her, just before Chris died, I finally answered her back, asking how she could say she “loved” him when all she did was deceive him. She deliberately misled him and prevented him from achieving his dreams, of even making a living playing music. She led him into a hole and if he tried to find his way out, she pushed him back in. So I challenged her on all of that and she didn’t respond. Ten days later, she sent me a photo of a crow perched on a lattice work fence.

lattice work - Satyricon
lattice work – Satyricon
Valarie’s crow

Regardless of how this is sugar coated, in truth, Valarie married Chris in order to destroy him. And I think that Courtney Love married Kurt Cobain for the exact same reason.

By the way – there are signs that indicate that this crew knew that Chris would be taken out on May 9th.

How do you suppose they would know that?

Chris was medically murdered by having his heart and breathing stopped remotely. Who made the call? And who sent out announcements ahead of time?