Some pages from a book on Seattle music – pages are 1969-70 – I made was at first looking at the line up for the May 3 Spring Flush (see poster) but then I noticed that on Chris Newman’s 16th birthday Paul Revere and the Raiders headlined a three-day “Teen Spectacular” at Seattle Center. The bands at University of Washington and the use of the pink butterfly as an illustration, caught my attention. One of the bands was Peanut Butter Conspiracy, making me think of the famous Iggy Pop peanut butter scenes from June 1970, and the fact that Iggy had a song called 1969, and another called 1970.
For his whole life, Chris had a weakness for peanut butter, which he would binge on. I could tell by how and when it came on, that it was frequency-induced. So it was a biomedical attack, one of many that affected his weight, his self-image (he falsely believed that he lacked self-discipline or self-control) his happiness (because of the effect on his self-image), and his health. It was literally a peanut butter conspiracy, but it wasn’t funny, it was cruel.
I know that my father’s alma mater, University of Washington. was among the many universities involved in butterfly making, and this is just further evidence.
With regards to Courtney Love, there is another misdirecting story about her where it’s said that Rozz Rezabek is the first person to call her “Love” as a pet name, as in “Courtney, Love.” There is an alternate story that Love was literally her middle name. I don’t know about that but I believe that she was called Courtney Love going back to early childhood. Her mother basically says this in her book, quoting herself as addressing her as “Courtney, Love” driving through San Francisco when Courtney was still a toddler. I bring this up, because if it is true, and if it is also true that Courtney was under a lot of surveillance, or if this whole idea of “love” is something older, that’s always been linked to her – then that means that when the word “love” appears in a song, even an old song, it might refer to her, or to her role.
Rites of Passage: A Memoir of the Sixties in Seattle – Walt Crowley 2000Rites of Passage: A Memoir of the Sixties in Seattle – Walt Crowley 2000UW “Spring Flush” 1969
Pinking out the black, dreaming in a crack Satan got her tongue, now it’s undone
Sonic Youth, Dirty Boots (1990)
Every time that I stare into the sun Angel dust and my dress just comes undone
Hole, Asking for It (1994)
“Good come in pink boxes”
The magic is in the hole
Voodoo Doughnut Slogans (2003-present)
When did Kurt Cobain meet Courtney Love? I’ve looked into this, and I don’t have an answer. Honestly, I’m not even sure when Chris and I first met, and that is because when you are into music and/or are a musician, and you are in a scene with other people who are into music and/or are musicians, you tend to know about people, especially performers, before personally meeting them. You might be in a room with the person, maybe be introduced briefly, or in someone’s orbit, part of a group conversation, etc. Then later on down the road, maybe you have the opportunity to have a longer conversation, but often it’s in a social setting with lots of other people. That’s how it was with Chris and me, and likely it was that way for Kurt and Courtney, but with the added twist of Courtney likely always had a mission and knew she had a mission. I say this because it seems clear to me now that when Courtney arrived in Portland in 1980, she was apparently on a mission to frame Chris Newman as a child rapist. It also seems clear that her father was part of that plan. Supposedly it was her father who provided her with the Owsley barrel acid she brought with her.
If it is true that Courtney had a mission with regards to Kurt Cobain, say by the mid-1980s, then it stands to reason she would have known when she first met Kurt, because she would have been paying attention, and it would have been a set up. By now I see that set ups are the rule, not the exception for people under this much surveillance and control – including Chris, me, my daughter, Kurt Cobain. This is unacceptable, by the way.
When I was running this Satyricon fan page on MySpace, as I said before, I received this at the time unpublished photo of Kurt Cobain by email which I thought was really neat. It was from Monica Nelson’s friend David Ackerman, a photographer who liked to take photos at Satyricon, and it was a performance photo from January 6, 1989.
Over time I saw more and more photos from that set eventually having access to the full collection. In one photo, I thought I recognized Courtney Love’s face looking up at Mudhoney, and sent an inquiry to Everett True about it, whom I already had had some email exchanges with, and he said that it might be her, but even if she was at the show, she was probably there to see Mudhoney, and there’s no evidence she met Kurt Cobain there. Later I realized the blonde woman in another photo was Courtney, or David told me it was her. The thing about this show is there weren’t many people there. Also, Courtney is pretty dressed up and front and center. I don’t know where she was living in 1989, but I now know she had been around my circle in Minneapolis in 1988, and in April or May of 1989 I would run into some LSD that was likely Owsley LSD – in Minneapolis. That may be nothing to do with Courtney, and everything to do with the CIA. It seemed like in the 1980s (and probably to this day) Courtney was/is always on the move with stations in New York, London, Los Angeles, etc. In the old days it included Portland, Seattle, San Francisco.
Then there’s this whole thing going on where even the most cursory contact with a person somehow earns another the “right” to file defamatory reports with the FBI. And by “defamatory” make no mistake – I don’t mean “negative” I mean full of damaging lies. For example, if I sell something to someone through the mail – the person pays me some money, and I put something in the mail to that person – or if I go and sell some musical equipment at a store – these people who engage in this simple, single straightforward transaction somehow have now earned the right make reports about me to the FBI. How this works I don’t understand. It could even be untrue, because I have no corroborating evidence. But it does seem to be true that any contact with a person whatsoever earns people, especially certain people, the right to create FBI files. So as soon as Courtney had some contact with, for example, Kurt Cobain, she could have been filing reports on him, with an agenda behind it all. And I have reason to believe that Sub Pop as a business was linked into all of this. The reason I believe this is because of how Cobain’s (Nirvana) shows were scheduled in relation to Chris’ (Napalm Beach or Snow Bud) shows – there was a parallel going on, not just in Europe but in Seattle and Portland, too. By this I mean, they typically would play the same clubs within a week or two of each other. (“I’ve been in your heart shaped box for too (two?) many weeks…”) I haven’t really shown this yet because every time I start working on collecting the data, the isht hits the fan.
I would ask myself why there would be a parallel going on. Sometimes things like this happen because there’s an occult side to this. Because the crimes are CIA and FBI linked, and police and the press are locked down (or that’s how they behave), there’s far less than usual concern about being “caught.” So there is some flaunting, display of power, going on.
The dirty plans for Kurt Cobain were, as most of these larger and more coordinated crimes are, not so much secret but covered up. I say this because I’m starting to see suggestions of something come out in videos both before and after the death of Kurt Cobain. There is the Sonic Youth video for Dirty Boots from 1990 showing a boy in a plaid shirt and a girl in a Nirvana t-shirt dramatically leaping off a stage, falling through the air. The Nirvana t-shirt has a home-made screen print look, with the word Nirvana appearing above a concentric circle radiation/target design similar to that used by Courtney on her posters for Hole. Also interesting that the t-shirt screen is red, since Cobain’s wrote his suicide note ~3 years later in red pen.
Sonic Youth – Dirty Boots 1991
The girl in the Dirty Boots video supposedly was chosen after being seen dancing in a club in New Jersey. I suspect that there is something deliberate in that, the New Jersey link. The boy in this video seems like he had some resemblance to me during this era. His hair is the same or similar color, length, style.
Is “boots” a play on bootleg? See poster with Babes In Toyland mentioning “bootleg” and “dirty, icky clothes!!” – Is that in turn a link to the Columbo coat? And later, the cat-piss leather jacket? Another possibility has to do with Chris getting back together with Valarie in San Francisco October of 1989, the weekend before the Loma Prieta earthquake. Jan Celt had been quoted in the local music press making a comment that Chris had found gross, about how their “boots would be knocking.” In fact, just as Chris was leaving San Francisco, the bridge-buckling earthquake hit.
Then there’s the 1992 Radiohead song “Creep.” There are different ways to listen to this song. Like, to me, maybe he’s not singing “I’m a weirdo” but “I’m a widow.” And “running out the door” is by design a mirror – meaning – either escape for the prisoners, Chris and me, or escape for the crime gang. In this case, the meaning is the latter, escape for the crime gang. And a primary strategy in this is to run out the clock – to get enough time to attack with radiation weapons and kill with cancer. This is what they need time to do, and why they always find a reason to ask for or incentivize others to accept the idea of giving us more time in captivity. Now, we should never have been kept in captivity. It is illegal, immoral, unethical, and cruel. But brainwashing and cult-like control is a huge part of this. They can make people believe or accept almost anything (they hope), and all they need to do is to keep the loop running long enough to “escape” and that in turn will give them the ability to continue the crime indefinitely (they believe). Another aspect of Creep is that the idea of it being about Courtney is probably a back side to it being about portraying me as a creep, the idea that I’m someone no one notices, that I want to be special, etc. That’s been both the manipulation around me, and the set ups, and the portrayals. I may have wished to be noticed, etc, but I never thought that I was a creep. But it’s not really about what I think, it’s about what the actual creeps project. At the end of the song they sing “run, run, RUN!” like a warning, which is, I think, what they wanted to do. To warn me, to warn Chris, to warn Kurt Cobain.
I think knowing this now, other songs like this will come forward. For example, Tom Petty’s “Into The Great Wide Open” (1991) and possibly Peter Gabriel’s “Big Time” (1987). I definitely see it in music videos that came out after the death of Cobain, like Soundgarden’s Black Hole Sun which is another mirror type song.
Back in 2014 I thought that the concept of the “hole” and the “sun” were equivalent but now I realize they are opposite. The hole represents death and darkness, while the sun represents truth.
It’s also pretty obvious, looking at this, that there’s a link between Courtney Love and Voodoo “the magic is in the hole” Doughnut, the spiral on the voodoo doll style doughnut being a link. The spiral may be worth its own entry.
I do see that in the Dirty Boots video it’s less a spiral than concentric rings, and I suspect this has to do with the acid test I would be put through on June 8, 1991, on the Klamath River (one year to the day, as it turns out, before the release of Faith No More’s album Angel Dust). The target shape looks like a topographic map.
As it appears on the t-shirt, it could be a vinyl record, a mountain peak, or a hole.
I just woke up at 3am to a most unpleasant dream. The dream faded as I woke, but the gist of it was this. That there was an interest in murdering me with cancer, via tower based radiation (which is how Chris Newman, Sam Henry, and Andrew and Matt Loomis among many others were given cancer) aimed at my abdomen/stomach – probably choosing that area of my body because my maternal biological grandfather was murdered with stomach cancer, and the doctors can say, disingenuously, “it genetic.” It has something to do with newspaper clippings maybe, maybe related to Napalm Beach/Untouchables, and there’s the idea of three, like three clippings, and a sense of the article Charles Cross and I think specifically the article Cross wrote about Napalm Beach for Seattle’s Post Intelligencer back in 1981. Then I woke up with a distinct sense of having been attacked in the stomach with radiation weapons – I can feel it right now, hot and unpleasant, and Roxy was also attacked and jumped up on my bed screaming. (Now I’m getting it in the lungs too.) So here I am again. I’m just going to riff for awhile on this because I’m living through night after unpleasant night and I’ve come to the point of really having had enough of the control agenda. I’m going to say right now, this blog is going to be stream of consciousness, I got to get it out kind of writing. Definitely imperfect, and very important. I have decided I am not going to stop spitting truth, because truth is too important.
It’s clear beyond clear that the false and misleading stories about Nirvana and grunge are paid for and coerced and the whole control agenda goes back to the very origins of the label. Furthermore, it seems pretty clear that contrary to the way things have been spun in written histories, Courtney Love was an integral part of the beginning of Sub Pop, and it had to do with her role – and Sub Pop’s role – with both Chris Newman and Kurt Cobain. And that I have been gradually exposing that is making them want to come down on me.
A few things about this – I didn’t set out to “expose” anyone. I set out to tell the truth about Chris Newman’s history, the same thing I was doing in 2013 when all this trouble started. The thing is, when I start to write about the history of Chris Newman, somehow I keep uncovering troubling information about the history of Kurt Cobain. The first time this happened, it was because as I learned to decode the language in the songs, it became clear that Cobain’s lyrics were pointing to something bad happening, or that had happened. I considered Courtney a sympathetic character at that time, and she cleverly played into it in a number of visible ways that eventually became clear were tricks and set ups aimed at misdirecting me, and tripping me up. It is my understanding that in the background she’s been financing these false reports sent to FBI/CIA, “Op Anne Boleyn” with the intent of getting me killed with cancer, in order to cover up crimes committed by her and others in her orbit, including James Burdyshaw and Monica Nelson. It’s honestly hard for me to swallow that Monica’s been part of this but I just go with where the evidence is taking me.
I think that one of the things that’s happening is that in order to piece together Chris’ history, I have to use the historical record, and the books that are out there (and again, I’m not up on the latest but I can’t imagine it’s changed much) are books on “grunge” as a general phenomena, and books on Kurt Cobain specifically. It looks like there a couple books on others who were murdered through black bag ops – Andrew Wood, Layne Staley, Chris Cornell – and yes, they were all murdered (there were others too – Mia Zapata is a case that seems to be involving some mind control cover up). I’ve seen clear signs Staley and Cornell were murdered and I’m just assuming Andrew Wood was a murder too because it would fit the pattern. It’s not hard to see these things once you know what to look for and investigate. The clues are designed to be obvious to those to whom they need to be obvious, but subtle enough to make it difficult to bring a case to court. Though cases could still be brought, if the police were willing to investigate black bag ops murders. The evidence is pattern-based and the murders are done through piezo-electrical biomedical implant networks accessible to the FBI and CIA. Presumably, that’s why it’s so hard to get them to investigate or address my evidence-based claims about these biomedical implant networks. By now they seem to feel entitled to do this (implant people without consent and use the implants to abuse, maim, murder), even though they they know it’s illegal as hell. It’s hardcore gangster stuff done to innocent citizens under the guise of law enforcement, using weapons of state (US government).
But I digress.
My main problem right now seems to be that my line of inquiry has led me again to Kurt Cobain, and in doing so, I’ve been uncovering lie after lie, published in more than one biography. I’ve only been focused on one lie over the past few days, but in the background I’m finding others. With regards to the first lie, that James Burdyshaw of CAT BUTT saw Nirvana open for the OBITUARIES at Squid Row in the summer of 1988, the whole reason this came up for me at all is because I was trying to catalog as much of Chris Newman’s show history prior to 1996 in Seattle and Portland as I could, based on whatever I could dig up online in the form of show posters, calendars, or other histories. This move – a totally reasonable thing for me or anyone to do – seems to have made people freak the f out. Don’t forget, I’m under 24/7 total surveillance including my computer screen being monitored in real time, with the ability to retaliate against me also being in real time. It makes it a real bitch to get anything at all done. Obviously, that’s by design. I don’t call this system “Nazi” for nothing. (Also, real WWII Nazis have been involved. It’s Operation Paperclip linked, MKULTRA type stuff.)
Why are they freaked out and trying to prevent me from looking into a simple history? I don’t know. But in doing that, I came to this lie told by Burdyshaw to Everett True, and got into a discussion that involved Burdyshaw online trying to fact check it, and in doing this I said that I thought the publisher of the book Nirvana: The True Story was not doing due diligence with fact checking. I mean, any interviewee could either lie or make mistakes, but either the writer, or the publisher, should have caught it. But then I realized, there is a pattern of bad information in books about Cobain. There’s also oh-so-much theater going on around this, which is part of a distraction thing I think. Remember: control of focus is a big part of this. These people – like Courtney Love – are not amateurs. They all work from a common script and a set of behavior manipulation techniques that was developed by the CIA.
If you wanted to continue to give the Everett True book benefit of the doubt, you might say, “Well, Everett True is from England, not Seattle, and the book publisher is English too, so they can’t be expected to get everything right.” I don’t know whether that’s reasonable or not, but let’s say that is the case. It turns out that there are also errors in the Charles Cross book, Heavier Than Heaven, that I wouldn’t expect to find. I can think of three errors I’ve run across. Two of them have to do with circumstances around Cobain first meeting Courtney Love, and one has to do with when and where Nirvana played their first shows. Everett True also gets the Cobain meeting Courtney Love story wrong. I don’t know when or how they met but I know it had to be by 1989 if not earlier. If you asked me to guess, I’d guess they were in each other’s orbit before Straight To Hell. This is for a few reasons, one being the size of the scene, one being what is increasingly looking like Courtney Love’s pivotal role in the formation of Sub Pop, and one being that Courtney Love, who had already tried, as an underage teenager, to honeytrap Chris Newman, had been chosen to become Cobain’s honeytrap. I might write more about this – there’s too much to say to put it in here.
Remember, not just the recording industry, but the CIA, in all their well-financed occultified brilliance, is behind this, partnering with the FBI.
I have a decent idea of what Chris and my roles have been in this. It’s harder to understand some of these ancillary crimes, like what happened to Bret Bowman and to Kurt Cobain. A lot of crime seems to be done just to get people deeper and deeper into the system and become more and more dependent on the crime gang for financial protection and gain, social capital, professional advancement, and protection from the consequences of being involved in crime in the first place. In other words, it’s layers of control. Keep in mind this is not just a few rock musicians or even the entertainment business but there are a lot of powerful and connected people involved in this, and maybe most importantly, the multi-billion dollar health care industry, including hospitals, doctors, nurses, psychologists, pharmaceutical companies, etc. All of these entities (and more) are participating in, and expect protection from, the CIA- and FBI-run crime network.
So basically the gist of it is this – by looking into, and publishing information about Chris Newman’s history, I disrupt the script that has been developed and repeated over and over, specifically in order to hide, not just crime around controlling Chris and burying his legacy, but crimes around Kurt Cobain – that they always planned to suicide him. And by they, I mean the CIA. The reason for this may simply have been to add another layer of protection to the attempt to keep Chris Newman from escaping lifelong imprisonment, but it’s also clear there’s a extremely lucrative profit system around these murders, and my understanding at this point is that the profit is from the financing of “FBI files” which are then used as a justification for murders, but I think there are other revenue streams as well, including streams linked specifically to cancer, a very lucrative disease. It’s not just murder, but insurance fraud. There’s also covert biomedical research going on. Many of these cancers are rare cancers, and give doctors the opportunity to try out the latest new treatments. And it’s not only cancer. Chronic and degenerative diseases are also lucrative diseases created by the CIA via biomedical implants. I also have reason to believe all the recent pandemics and re-emergence of older diseases like polio are part of this. In fact, as time goes by I’m realizing that the biological warfare component is huge and growing. It appears to be war-for-profit by the CIA and medical industry against, basically everyone in the world.
The bigger the crime, the more important control of information becomes. Right now publishing in general seems to be very controlled. That is obviously a first amendment violation. From my perspective, it’s hard to understand why Americans don’t fight harder on behalf of their constitutionally protected rights. You don’t even need to pick up a gun, you just need to tell the truth. But the first truth to tell would be the truth about the CIA crime network, because until that happens, it threatens everything and everyone, meaning there is no freedom.
I don’t know quite where to go next. Do I keep talking about Kurt and Courtney? Do I talk about whistleblowing I’ve witnessed around the hospitals?
One thing I will say is back in late 2017 it was made really clear to me while I was inside of Providence Hospital, on their internet network, via that network, that there was something to look out for under the name “Naomi.” Naomi is the name of Sam Henry’s ex-girlfriend who died of cancer before the age of 50. She was very close to Rozz Rezabek, an ex-boyfriend of Courtney Love. If the prevailing stories are to be believed, Courtney was stuck on Rozz for ages. Rozz was basically in love with Naomi, and Naomi was also pretty close to Chris. Naomi is also the name of an MKULTRA era CIA biological warfare program. I think both meanings were intended, in part because Naomi Levich was killed by the CIA – under technology linked to Project Naomi – radiation weapons and piezo-electrical biomedical implants. And why would she be killed? Apparently people are killed because of defamatory reports filed with the FBI. You can imagine who might have been filing defamatory reports on Naomi Levich.
This is just a follow up on the Jeffrey Ofelt comment made in the 2007 Stranger article (Beerly Deloved) about Courtney Love picking up a leather trench coat for Kurt Cobain in the early 1990s. Like I said, although it’s possible, I’d be surprised if Cobain ever wore a leather trench coat. But what I think is interesting about that comment is it links together the incident where Chris had his belongings taken in 1996 and I witnessed belongings thrown out into the yard of a rented home that had been temporarily abandoned around 2003. When I was reading through Charles Cross’ book on Kurt Cobain, it looked like Cobain too had something like that happen.
Among the belongings that were thrown out in 2003 were a little 1970s paperback (like, almost a zine), sort of small press book called something like How To Play Guitar Left Handed that I was told had belonged to Kurt Cobain. It included a version of “In The Pines.” I sort of wish I could have held onto that somehow, though it wasn’t mine, but it was lost in this incident. I have an old paperback Pete Seeger folksong book from the early 1960s that belonged to my dad, and it has the same song in it. Leadbelly was a popular folk artist for several decades. The other thing that Kenny had that supposedly had belonged to Kurt Cobain, and got thrown out, was a leather jacket, that supposedly a cat had peed on. How Kenny got these things, he said, was he was in a band where one of Cobain’s cousins played drums. No idea whether any of this is true. I didn’t think at first that Cobain had ever been seen wearing a leather jacket, but later I saw that in fact he did wear a leather jacket like the one Kenny had in The Year Punk Broke. So maybe it had been his jacket.
And then there was that thing where Courtney Love left a beige oversized trench coat in the back of the Napalm Beach van when she jetted off to Europe in 1981, and Chris picked it up and wore it onstage. So that Ofelt story looks to me like it combines two coats into one – the leather coat that had allegedly belonged to Cobain that showed up in my life, and the Columbo coat that had belonged to Courtney, that Chris later wore. If I’m correct – and that’s what Ofelt was doing, it shows the surveillance going on, and likely the manipulations as well. Also, it makes me think that Courtney may have actually been behind Kenny and the Kurt Cobain linked items he brought with him. She had a tendency to spread Cobain’s belongings around.
I have reason to believe that Cobain was under heavy surveillance. These kinds of things, getting all your belongings thrown out or destroyed are traumatic. Those of us who are under this kind of surveillance are treated this way for the benefit of pleasing and/or controlling and/or traumatizing the viewers. Other things, like leaving something for someone to find and seeing what they do for it, also seems to be a form of entertainment.
Chris Newman wasn’t the only one in his family who was brutally run down and murdered 2020-21. His mother was, too. Hollywood sometimes does us a “favor”? of showing how the creeps depict and fictionalize by writing the fictionalizations into movies in such a way that I can recognize to whom they are referring. Based on that, I see Chris’ mother, who was kind, intelligent, quiet, long-suffering (too long) – who was attacked biomedically and falsely diagnosed as having Alzheimers disease – was portrayed as petty, attention seeking, callous, disingenuous. One of the portrayals of her was leaked via the not-particularly-sympathetic protagonist in the 2021 movie Breaking News In Yuba County.
That Chris believed she actually had Alzheimers disease speaks to the power of his belief in doctors. Maybe he – maybe everyone – believes in the integrity of doctors (?) or maybe he was brain-controlled not to question these things but there is no way in hell that woman had Alzheimers disease, and certainly not the “advanced” Alzheimers she’d been diagnosed with.
But over and over I could provide Chris with evidence showing that people were lying, and he couldn’t put it together or shake the trust he had or the image he had of certain individuals, family members, professions. It’s tempting to psychologize all of this because that’s how we’re trained, but more likely it was simple conditioning and frequency-based mind control.
Chris’ 87 year old mother was from my perspective desperately signaling that something was terribly wrong and for this she was either being ignored, punished, or portrayed as an attention seeker. It almost seems like this crime group gets a sick pleasure out of portraying someone as the opposite of what they actually are, and managing to sell that portrayal.
What I saw Chris go through in his final days, the kind of tremendous artist he was, what he was trying to do at the end, how even a graceful exit was denied to him in favor of monsters who thought it would be “cute” to have him collapse in the bathroom like Elvis and then tortured the same way they tortured my dog to death in 1992.
I’m telling you. These are the real monsters and they deserve their just desserts.
From Nirvana: The True Story (2006) p 80 – with my own commentary following
Coming back to this quote that caused all the ruckus, a few things stand out to me. Did Burdyshaw even ever see Nirvana perform? All the things he says contradict each other so much that it seems entirely possible the whole thing is made up. Why is it so important to put him in a book?
There’s a footnote here, number 22, the number of the Fool. The footnote reads “James is exactly describing “sifting here -which is very Melvins.”
Sifting
Afraid to grade Wouldn’t it be fun? Cross, self-loss Wouldn’t it be fun? Wet your bed Wouldn’t it be fun? Some felt numb Wouldn’t it be fun?
Your eyes Teacher said Your eyes Teacher said Your eyes Teacher said Preacher said
Don’t have nothing for you Don’t have nothing for you Don’t have nothing for you Don’t have nothing for you Don’t have nothing for you Don’t have nothing for you Don’t have nothing for you
Spell the smell Wouldn’t it be fun? Search for a church Wouldn’t it be fun? Wet your bed Wouldn’t it be fun? Cold and coals Wouldn’t it be fun?
Your eyes Teacher said Your eyes Teacher said Your eyes Preacher said The Preacher said
Don’t have nothing for you (etc)
A few things stand out about Sifting – first – I don’t exactly understand the title. Initially I didn’t understand anything much about Nirvana lyrics but over time I started to understand them pretty well. Maybe this has to do with sifting through something, looking for something. Maybe this song is about trying to present this atrocity like it’s a game or a puzzle to figure out, as has been done to us – Chris never would have any of it, and he was smart in that regard. I was caught in that trap for a while. Wet the bed seems like a link to Snow Bud song “Uppers Downers Inners Outers” with the line about “bed wetters.” Bladder control/loss of bladder control is done with biomedical implants. Part of what they do is try to humiliate and traumatize and give people the sense of loss of control.
In Charles Cross’ book, Heavier Than Heaven, Burdyshaw isn’t mentioned, but Cat Butt is, in that apparently in 1989 (and it must have been June 10, 1989) Nirvana stepped in as a last minute replacement for Cat Butt in Portland. I looked this up, and it was at Blue Gallery, and it sounds like it was a difficult show because the only people there were there to see Cat Butt and were basically a hostile audience. It makes me wonder why Cat Butt suddenly didn’t play, and why Nirvana was asked to step in. And I will say, that what I feel right now, is that Monica Nelson was in league with Burdyshaw, and they were in league with Courtney Love, and there was a lift off/take down plan for Nirvana, and this all had to do with global finance.
In Chris and my situation, people often want to have some kind of contact with us, apparently because even the most superficial interaction allows them to create these false FBI reports which are then used to justify biomedical attacks, torture, and even assassination by FBI/CIA. Maybe that’s what was going on.
