Every version of the story told openly is that Kurt Cobain was missing on April 6, 1994, but not in a public way. In reality, he was lying dead in his greenhouse. The story that I “received” (psychically) is that Cobain’s April 5 suicide was captured on surveillance video, and distributed or possibly even trafficked by the FBI/CIA to the usual suspects – journalists, celebrities, political leaders, global financiers, etc.
What newspapers like New York Times do when something like this is either being planned, or has happened (and this includes the 9/11 attacks) is sneak commentary in between the lines. Part of this is achieved with language, part with images, and part is achieved with juxtapositions – what articles appear next to what other articles. Also, as I said in an earlier post, the name of the reporter covering a story is often significant, as in containing a hidden reference to something.
Here is a small corner of the front page of April 6, 1994 New York Times that caught my attention. Cropping a portion of a document in a photo can bring out things you might otherwise miss. (Commentary below image)
In this section of the front page is an article about Serbian attacks on a Muslim town in Bosnia-Herzegovina. Nirvana bassist Krist Novoselić is Croatian. Also, throughout these issues I see what I think are allusions to the impending 9/11 attacks, which were manufactured to seem to be a grudge held by a group of radical Muslims against the US. I’m not saying that the attacks were not that – I’m saying that, like Cobain’s suicide, the entire situation was manufactured by the CIA from start to finish. In other words, yes, Cobain committed suicide, but he was also murdered. Yes, the 9/11 attacks were an attack on the US by a group of radicals, but it was also a type of false flag. In other words, with mind control technology, the human brain itself is hacked, hijacked, and weaponized. Our current legal system doesn’t deal with this, but it needs to, because the human brain is a powerful weapon.
There’s an article that says “Teamsters Strike Stops Activity of Big Haulers” by Catherine S. Manegold. So we have the word “big haul” and the name “Manegold” – not sure what to make of this but it seems like it’s something linked to finance. (Headlines I believe are created by editors, not the reporters.) And then, the article – and this was the beginning of a series of articles – that caught my attention first, was the article about Supreme Court Justice Blackmun retiring. Was Cobain seen as a type of Justice?
The thing that first caught my attention with this article was the sub-heading “Departure Is Unlikely to Alter Ideological Makeup of Bench.” Words that might be significant – departure, alter, makeup, bench. With regards to the word “alter” – there is a potential play on alter/altar and the idea of “alternative.” “Alter” is I believe a trauma-based mind control term for a secondary or alternate personality (I can’t recall where I’ve heard this, but I feel like I’ve heard it a lot) and yesterday it occurred to me that something of this could be implicit in the idea of “alternative” music which was the industry-friendly word for grunge and grunge-adjacent music of the 1990s.
The word “altar” appears at the end of the Cobain suicide note. “Frances, Courtney I’ll be at your altar” – but to me it looks just as much like “I’ll beat your altar.” Deaths are fetishized.
Francis is a person caught in the middle but Courtney was old enough to have agency. I no longer feel much empathy for her. Not after seeing what happened to Chris Newman. And the truth is, she knew this was going to happen to Kurt and to Chris and she actively played a role in bringing it about. She herself does not possess true empathy. I saw her bait and switch Chris with regards to things like she was going to write a book and mention him so he wouldn’t be forgotten. Around 2016 she told him that she remembered he had taught her to play guitar, which, if true, would be a very sweet thing to say in a book, though he didn’t remember teaching her to play guitar. When she did have someone call him about a book, that person only asked Chris about other random people, implying “you don’t really matter, Chris Newman.” Courtney didn’t call him herself. And she never wrote the book she’s been saying she’d write for years. It’s all bait and switch, wash rinse repeat until he’s dead. And then the community fetishes another fresh kill.
I’m sick of it and I sure don’t want to be next on this disgusting menu.
Back to the New York Times – look at who wrote the Judge Blackmun article – Linda Greenhouse.
“I just don’t want you to be shocked – that he’s a Blackmun”
Kurt Cobain shot himself in his greenhouse on April 5, 1994. His body was discovered on April 8. But it’s clear the suicide was captured via hidden surveillance devices that surround all “butterflies” or subjects of trauma-based and frequency-based mind control research as he was, I am, my daughter is, everyone around me is, Chris was, and Courtney Love is. I can give evidence for all of this. In addition, with both Courtney Love and Kurt Cobain, there are a lot of parallels between their early lives and mine. These parallels could shed light on centers of mind control activities, and/or related finance.
These “experiments” are really financed games played with people’s lives. People are treated like dolls or objects. Human avatars. Some, like Courtney Love, seem to accept their role in the mess and play it like it’s a hand that’s dealt. Others, like me, and I would say also Kurt Cobain, resist. Still others, like Chris, can’t even see that it’s happening at all. That probably has to do with what kinds of opportunities are or are not offered offered, the personality of any given person, social/familial engineering, and how frequencies are used to manipulate each person’s body and brain by those wielding the weapons.
With regards to Courtney Love, I started out believing she was a sympathetic character who wanted to subvert this system. This was shown to be deception. The longer this goes on, the less sympathetic I find her. It’s not like I wasn’t warned, but those warning me could never quite articulate what they were warning me about. “Courtney Love wrote in her diaries she’s going to fuck the Chris Newman, the guitar god.” What does that mean, exactly?
I know that she’s behind financing slander to get people killed. I think it’s because she’s scared of exposing herself, and yes, her role in the takedown of Kurt Cobain. She was an adversarial honeytrap, but has been trying to play it otherwise. And all the Nick Broomfield “Kurt & Courtney” stuff, and the associated online mobs, is misdirection. Love never tried to pay anyone to murder Kurt Cobain because she wouldn’t have had to, and because she was never the mastermind of the situation. That mastermind is the CIA/FBI. Also, Courtney Love is only one player on a very large field full of are lots of little monsters to reckon with. People who are trained to live this way – selling salacious stories to the FBI, getting their “friends” killed, and pretending they loved them all along. In Chris’ case, the situation was, from my perspective, particularly obscene, with memorials held at Satanic-themed venues, like Faillace’s clubs, that helped finance Chris’ murder.
Claudia Gehrke aka Claudia Lemon was the booking agent, and invited Chris and Napalm Beach to play her 27th birthday party on August 25, 1987. Supporting Napalm Beach was H-Hour who must have just arrived from Idaho. Tad Doyle who later fronted TAD, played drums. And then there was Bundy Creature. The following year, August 26, 1988 Chris’ side project Snow Bud and the Flower People headlined again for Claudia’s 28th birthday, this time at Squid Row.
Sub Pop Sundays seems to have begun on September 13, 1987 – 19 days after Claudia’s 27th birthday. According to something she wrote on Facebook, she let the Sub Pop guys (presumably Bruce and/or Jonathan) book whom ever they wanted on those nights. Sub Pop Sundays seem to have been once a month, ending on June 27, 1988. This, again, is according to the 3band3bucks website. But June 27, 1988 was a Monday, not a Sunday, and 3bands3bucks does not show a band for that date, just “Sub Pop Monday.” I have tried to figure out who, if anyone, played on this date, so far without success.
For context, here is the full calendar as listed on 3bands3bucks from June 1988
Vogue – June 1988 1 – The Beatnigs (SF), Skin Yard 6 – Jayne County (NY), Fastbacks 7 – Pop Defect (LA), Kristen Barry 8 – Feast, Lethal Gospel 13 – The Pink Slips 14 – Accused, Derelicts 15 – Bundle Of Hiss, Nirvana 20 – Ash 21 – The Option, The Groove 22 – Catbutt, Babyteeth 27 – Sub Pop Monday w/…. 28 – Action Buddie, URU 29 – Napalm Beach (PDX), Coffin Break
And here are all the listed Sub Pop Sundays bands
Sub Pop Sundays 1987 September 13 – Sub Pop Sunday w/Swallow October 25 – Sub Pop Sunday w/Chemistry Set December 27 – Sub Pop Sunday w/Dead Moon
Sub Pop Sundays 1988 January 31 – Sub Pop Sunday w/ My Beerdrunk Soul Is Sadder Than All The Dead Christmas Trees In The World February 28 – Sub Pop Sunday w/ Snow Bud & The Flower People March 27 – Sub Pop Sunday w/Doll Squad April 24 – Sub Pop Sunday w/Nirvana May 28 – Subpop Sunday w/The Derelicts June 27 – Sub Pop Monday w/…
Aside from June, the only month missing is November 1987. Maybe it’s missing or maybe it didn’t happen. Of the nine Sub Pop Sundays listed, two are headlined by Portland bands – Dead Moon and Snow Bud and the Flower People. Both those bands were three-piece bands. There was a common member in both of those bands, drummer Andrew Loomis. Of those two bands (five people), only one person survives today, and that’s Toody from Dead Moon. Everyone else has died of cancer. None of them lived to see their 70th birthday. Andrew didn’t live to see his 60th. He died in 2016 at age 54, with his brother Matt dying four years later at age 55. Chris and Sam died less than a year apart. All of cancer.
It’s hard, at least for me, not to look at all these Sub Pop Sundays band line ups and see something like a storyline. Because there’s another thing about the calendar and that’s that last date, June 27, 1988. That’s the date that Bret Bowman was hit by a car.
Bret was my neighbor. He was about 2 1/2 years older than me. I’d known him since we were both young children. In June 1988 I was living in St Paul, Minnesota and it seems like Mike Payne was back and forth between Humboldt County (where we had lived) and St Paul. Bret had been hit while walking along Highway 101 in Crescent City, California. He was with a schoolmate of ours named Jimmy Shaw. They were high on L.S.D. They were on their way to Oregon Country Fair (aka “the hippie fair”) where they had planned to meet up with another classmate of ours named Scott Gear. Bret struggled to survive, and ended up in a coma for more than a decade. This is where it gets very confusing to me because no one has ever been fully honest with me about any of this. Bret’s obituary states that he was in a coma for 16 1/2 years. I had heard rumors that he came out of the coma and died by suicide. I tried to get more information but people would at first seem receptive, then suddenly not want to talk about it. Also, while Bret was alive, in this long term coma – something that is very unusual, by the way – I never could get good information about where he was, nor did I understand his condition. I thought he was brain dead. A “vegetable” they sometimes called it back then. Everyone around me who had known Bret pushed that idea, that he was “gone” – but I now think they knew better and were working from a script or an agenda.
I had a dream relating to Bret exactly one year before he was hit, and I had ominous dreams about Bret in weeks and months before he was hit, and I dreamt about Bret the night before he was hit. Being as I was in Minnesota, I didn’t find out about the incident until later – maybe a couple of weeks later.
Last time I spoke with Jimmy via Facebook, he was living in Washington State and I asked him what kind of acid did they do and he said “please don’t ask me anymore questions about Bret.”
Jimmy and Scott might be one year older than me. It seems like Jimmy befriended me first, then Bret later. I never really was friends with Scott, but I knew who he was. He seems to have gotten a job with Sub Pop sometime that same year, 1988.
The Oregon Country Fair is potentially linked to Courtney Love’s family, or family connections.
Got a uncle name George Horny motherfucker always down to orge Freaky motherfucker wanna Georgie Porg’ Treat a big booty like a smorgasbord Freaks on the floor, freaks on the floor How many of y’all freaks on the low? Freaks on the floor, freaks on the floor How many of y’all freaks on the low?
Ice Cube, New Funkadelic (Everythang’s Corrupt 2018)
Something that is increasingly clear is that a number of people linked to the Sub Pop orbit have been directly involved in obtaining and distributing surveillance footage of a pornographic nature of me, Chris, and my daughter, including when my daughter was a child.
It’s also increasingly clear that Sub Pop’s plans for world domination were well underway by the mid-1980s, and that, true to their name, they included a lot of underground shenanigans. The name Sub Pop evolved from Subterranean Pop. While both “Sub” and “Pop” could have a number of meanings, one meaning of “pop” is a father (dad). So one translation of Sub Pop may be “underground dad.” I believe that “dad” is code for FBI and CIA. (This might help explain “infrared riding hood” Tad?)
Finally, it is clear that ex-honeytrap Mike may be a linking person between my daughter’s family in northwestern California and Sub Pop. It is important to remember that when Mike and I started going out in July 1984 I was barely 16 and he was 21.
So if we rewind back to 1988, that is the year a lot of pieces were falling into place for Sub Pop. Meanwhile, in my world, Mike was in Thailand in February 1988, I think doing deals for a silver jewelry importer he worked for at the time, called Tomás Jewelry. Then Mike returned to the US, and flew to Minnesota where he lived with me. We lived in the St Paul Midway district between June and November 1988 when Mike announced that he was tired of Minnesota and didn’t want to deal with winter, so he would go back to California. I was in college and couldn’t really follow him. We had already had a long distance relationship in the past so it didn’t seem that weird to me to revert back to that.
But something else happened that summer. That was the summer my friend and neighbor, Bret Ellis Bowman was hit by a car. That happened on June 27, 1988. For a number of reasons I believe that situation is also somehow linked to the origin of Sub Pop, something that I expect will come up again.
What I didn’t know is that when Mike Payne left Minneapolis/St Paul in November 1988, is I was about to become the target of a series of set ups involving more honey traps (multiple honey traps it looks like now), and LSD.
The LSD seems to have been connected to San Francisco, and may have even been connected to Courtney Love, or to Courtney Love and Mike Payne. This reminds me also, there are two SF Bay Area linked Mikes in this – Mike Payne and Mike Patton – but as far as I know, Mike Patton wasn’t anywhere around Minneapolis.
Anyway, apparently Courtney Love was in Minneapolis about this time, and that fact seems to be something that was pretty well covered up until recently – specifically, exactly when Courtney Love was in Minneapolis used to be obscured, but it now appears it was 1988.
Another thing about this is Courtney Love, when she was in Minneapolis, was apparently a pal of a person I considered my best friend at the time, Erika Schlaeger. That makes Erika Schlaeger a potential linking person between Mike Payne and Courtney Love, as she knew both of them. In fact, Mike, who had been studying jewelry and metal smithing, had made a silver ring with an onyx stone, square shaped or cabachon style, that in 1988 Erika had purchased from him for $80 – that looked similar to a ring worn by Kurt Cobain in the March 1994 photo session with Youri Lenquette.
So Courtney and Erika were pals, according to Erika, but I never met Courtney.
According to my memory, journals, etc the post 1988 set ups sort of went in this order:
Honeytrap Andrew Lopas “street poet from Los Angeles” – March 1989 set up – The set up with Andrew Lopas I now realize appeared in rather precise detail in dreams going back to early 1988 – in those dreams he was described as being a combination of “Pete Townshend” and a few other people. This is I think because part of his job was to put down my musical ability and psychologically smash my guitar. Erika S introduced me to Andrew L.
Encountering Owsley “Sunshine” blotter-style LSD at a party. The party was held by a girl who knew Andrew Lopas. I remember at this party she was dressed all in metallic silver. Like, wearing a metallic silver dress. Erika introduced me to the guy with the LSD. Before it happened, I had a dream about eating “bubblegum LSD” and asking if it was “diluted” (word play, I think – diluted/deluded – hinting at this plan to frame me as delusional).
Teenage honeytrap “George.” This seems like something I need to address again?
When my relationship with Mike fell apart I went into a spiral of sorts. Conveniently, I had also just turned 21, so I drank a lot and had a couple of gross sexual encounters. They were with guys my age. I also had platonic guy friends who were drinking buddies, including a guy who shows up in my journals as Paul Stein (I guess it’s his real name). On March 13, 1989 – exactly 20 years before I got together with Chris – I recorded a dream.
There is a lot going on in this dream. Plus the dream symbols from this time usually seem to have about three different meanings. I’m talking about dreaming in code, not symbols. The looping snake drawing after the dream was just something I did because I was into things like yin/yang and Carl Jung and stuff. Looking at it now, I suppose people who were all up in my business (reading my journals) made it into something sexual, and something racial.
I don’t remember the man from Africa I mention meeting (in real life). The part about the car door among other things is a link to how my future daughter’s paternal grandmother died in 1968 – the story was that she fell out of a moving car, because she leaned up against a door. But this is probably also about all the set ups and planned defamation and the idea of us trying to get out of a trap and people linked to cars (finance) using these stories to try and get us killed by the FBI/CIA – who are the ones who instigated the set ups to begin with.
Regarding “ripped jeans” – I now think anything with the word “rip” is a coded death reference, and I think others know the meaning of jeans better than I – it’s about financing someone, linked to the color blue – so that suggests reporting stories to the FBI for money, and probably specifically manufacturing untrue stories for dirty money. It’s deliberately deadly, illegal, and treated as a game.
I say that in the dream, I had forgotten my fake ID. I had this dream just before my 21st birthday. I had an older girl’s ID that I sometimes used to get into bars. But Chris’ early 1980s band the Untouchables had a song called Fake I.D. (I don’t think I’ve ever heard it) and the idea of Chris being evoked in this dream is really interesting because he had once said that Tim Brook’s of the Blue Gallery put the Satyricon “ripped jeans” crowd down – and they also started calling Chris’ bands “bar bands” as an insult.
The man I’m flirting with in this dream is an adult, probably older than me.
A couple pages later, there’s an entry that looks like it’s the inspiration for Smashing Pumpkins song “Bullet With Butterfly Wings,” and 3-4 pages after that is an entry that looks like an inspiration for Soundgarden’s “Black Hole Sun.” (I’ll post these later.)
During this period of time, my friend Erika Schlaeger was sometimes hanging around with a fifteen year old black boy who I call George in my journals. I don’t remember if that’s his real name. It’s probably made up. By this time I was living with a roommate in Dinkeytown, Minneapolis. There was a neighborhood coffee shop called Gioccos where we would hang out, drinking coffee. That’s where I would see Erika with George. It seems like he was homeless, couch surfing. Maybe she was letting him stay with her.
So he was 15 and I was 20 when I met him, I think, and mostly I just saw him with Erika at Giocco’s. The last time I saw him is the time I wrote about in my journal, when I was 21. From the very beginning, George was overtly flirtatious with me, acting like he was in love with me and wanted to be my boyfriend. I never took it seriously. To me he was a boy (not a grown man).
One day I ran into him at Giocco’s and then we took a walk to the river, and I wrote about it in my journal, as far as I can remember, pretty much exactly like it happened. It was nothing sexual. He kissed me on the cheek and that was the last time I saw him.
It sounds like the way the journal entries stack up, that the black man in the dream from 3/13/1988 was supposed to link to George. Based on some of the references in that dream, it appears that there may be some kind of link between “George” and Sub Pop. With all of his scars, George bore the signs of a “butterfly” – a person who’s trauma is leveraged and weaponized, covertly, via techniques in use by FBI and CIA. The dream that seems to link to George has references that I would now call “smashing guitar” references, which have to do with ways that people tried to sabotage Chris’ and my ability to play music, including by trying to break our spirits. That’s part of the “ripped jeans” reference. There are things about the way this stacks up, also, that suggest links between George and Andrew Lopas – the idea of a person who is a combination of other entities. Andrew Lopas, George, and Courtney Love were all linked to Erika Schlaeger. Erika also knew Kat Bjelland and all the girls in Babes In Toyland. So that means that Erika Schlaeger knew at least two people who had been friends of Chris in Portland – Courtney Love and Kat Bjelland.
With regards to the song references (I’ll put those journals in a subsequent entry) – Black Hole Sun by Soundgarden and Bullet With Butterfly Wings by Smashing Pumpkins – it looks like a reference to Courtney Love (Hole) and maybe that Sunshine LSD. And there’s the word “black” and the word “pain” which I think, at least in this time period, is always a play on Payne. Chris had a heroin dealer named Scotty Payne, who died, I don’t know how, around 2017. A question I have is how does Smashing Pumpkins show up in this part of the tapestry. In fact, a question I have is how and when did Courtney Love meet Billy Corgan? I guess Smashing Pumpkins are from Chicago and there is a lot of interchange between Chicago and Minneapolis so it might have been that.
Going through images I just found these screenshots I made from viewing a post shared through Chris’ Facebook account back in March of 2019. The original post was made on January 28, 2018. Courtney Love has had a habit of popping into Satyricon related Facebook accounts, leaving a couple comments, then disappearing for a few more years. In this case, she comments about Napalm Beach letting her “sleep on their couch” with what looks like maybe an implied comment to Chuck Arjavac. Reading that, Chris commented to me that actually she lived in the band house and had her own room (1981). I don’t know if I’m reading too much into this but elsewhere I’ve read there was someone in the 1980s Portland punk scene named Eric Couch.
I count three people in this thread who were fine when it was posted and have since died of cancer: Matt Loomis, Chris Newman, Sam Henry.
New Yorker’s Daphne Merkin on Nick Broomfield and Courtney Love
Today I ran into and read for the first time an article about Courtney Love in the New Yorker, dated June 8, 1998. That would be seven years to the day after (FBI/CIA) tranced me out and tried drop me off a cliff while on L.S.D. with my army veteran honey trap boyfriend, and it would also have been my daughter’s father’s 36th birthday. I do have reason to suspect there are links between Courtney and others around her, and my daughter’s fathers’ family, especially her cousins the Spinos from Warm Springs, Oregon.
Let’s just say I don’t think the date of the article is a conicidence.
The article explains that Courtney has a number of personalities that she cycles through. This seems accurate. And the article is a bit of a review about the Nick Broomfield movie called Kurt and Courtney.
There’s a lot to parse in the article because journalists are forever indicating that they know more than they let on while pretending not to know much.
One of the sentences that stood out to me in this article is about 3/4 through, at the end of paragraph 16 when the writer asks “So how is it that everyone he talked to either hates or fears Love?” And Broomfield responds “I didn’t find anyone who had anything wonderful to say about her.”
When journalists are letting you know they know about something linked to Chris or me, they typically do it in the last sentence of a paragraph, as if between the paragraphs, there’s a second part left unspoken and understood.
Chris had been interviewed for Kurt and Courtney. Valarie was also there. I don’t know if Chris had “wonderful” things to say about Courtney, but he always said he had nothing bad to say about her, and Flying Heart/Jan Celt told Chris and the local music press that the reason the footage with Chris did not appear in Kurt and Courtney is because it was a hit piece and Chris had nothing bad to say. Chris and Valarie had pet rats and he told me that when the camera crew was there, Valarie was letting baby rats run in and out of her mouth.
See how I just did that end-of-the-paragraph thing?
Another thing about that movie is that Napalm Beach’s cover of Wipers Potential Suicide is mentioned in the credits, but it it not used in the movie. I suspect that’s also hint of some type. Look at the pattern of songs on the original 1992 release of 8 Songs for Greg Sage.
Once again – Napalm Beach wasn’t the only band being set up for a fall.
Nirvana was also being set up for a fall.
The occultists are fascinated by opposites. Black/white. Good twin/Evil twin. The first/the last. The biggest/the smallest. Up/down. Beginning/End. Napalm Beach was the oldest of a group, and Nirvana the youngest.
A vanishing point, in art, looks like the top of a pyramid or the center of an X. “One above, one below” – and yet somehow, both end up in the dirt.
